A reiteration, a reminder, a position that still holds true.
When I wrote in my earlier post, "I don't give a shit about love", I meant with regards to partnership/relationship and most especially marriage. I don't envision my future in the context of relationship or partnership. I envision creativity, travel, money and time to romp with my kids. I never picture it (my life), at least not since my divorce a couple years ago, including someone else. I admit this will probably change. When it does it will have to be unobtrusive and natural, like the day I develop fish gills and can finally breathe under water [perhaps like a Thunder Queen with an Ocean King]. That's the kind of natural fit required--the difficult to come by but not impossible natural. For now relationship of any sort feels stifling. Like it was a year ago, it's far from my mind and at the bottom of my heap of priorities.When I entertain the idea of possibly partnering up again, I envision two homes interconnected or close together like Diego and Frida. I'm very needy when it comes to space; I need a large daily dose of time alone and privacy or I get cranky. The opposite is true too, which makes balance in a relationship so fucking difficult. I want you when I want you and I want you to go away when I don't. Yep, and that makes people feel damn good (joking). Timing is everything and hardly ever convenient. These days I horde my time and space and privacy [I still do, and I'm all the happier for it.]. Is this part of the whole midlife crisis, too? If you have the answer, do tell.
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Abduction is the name given to the logic of retro-induction by C.S. Pierce. As noted by Rosalind E. Krauss in her book The Optical Unconcsious:
ABDUCTION
Rule: All the beans from this bag are white.
Result: These beans are white.
...Case: These beans are from this bag.
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Image: "You're Still Not Listening" by Mike Scofield
Text source: Art On Wry blog post "I See An Earthquake in Your Future" published March, 2008.
3 COMMENTS:
AM
very interesting post, thanks for sharing
Prego, Alfonso.
I most confess that my romantic interests have evolved since the original was posted a year ago, but in many ways it still holds true: my focus, my priority, at least at this stage in my life, is not on romance but on cutting a new swath through the tangled jungle of responsibilities and history to make room for a new career, greater self expression, creativity, my children and other personal dreams I wish to cultivate--all of which is progressing very well and much to my liking.
As you must already know from your own experience, our lives go through phases, each demanding something new of us. Some transitions are more difficult than others yet are, I find, never without some sort of boon if approached correctly.
Unfortunately, I have found myself in a position recently where I must remind certain people that I'm on a path entirely of my chosing that delights me to no end--a path which cannot and does not (nor do I want it to) include everyone who happens to cross it. So it is in life. From time to time, though, we sometimes forget that it's not personal or something to ever feel sorry for.
I am sure that is much more information than you needed, but perhaps it will be helpful in some small way to other strangers who stumble across this blog.
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I hear what you're saying LOUD AND CLEAR, AM, and I completely sympathize with your desire and need to maintain that crucial alone time and space. This has to be one of the toughest aspects of partnering with another human being- that precarious and never ending search for balance... but we must continue to strive for it, as hard as it may seem!
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